Thursday, January 31, 2008
Well, as far as healthy goes, I've walked almost 40 miles this month (just one more day of walking and I would have hit 40!) I am proud of myself, but I know I can do even more next month!! I've eaten less junk, but still eat too much. As far as weight goes...well, that's a bit tricky. We got a new scale last week, one of those high tech digital ones. The old one we had was one of the dial, spring loaded, cheapies that we've had for about 10 years. Depending on how you stood, leaned, etc, you could change your weight up to 5 pounds. So...I wanted a digital one that you couldn't trick! My true weight shocked me! I weigh about 8 pounds more than I thought I did...ack! But, since getting the new scale I have lost 4 pounds, so I guess I'm going in the right direction.
I've read the entire books of Genesis and Exodus, and I'm almost through Laviticus. I've found myself praying more often, not deep philisophical prayers, just talking to my Father. Thank you for this day. Help me in this difficulty. Keep my children/hubby safe...that type of prayer. I'm doing some serious prayer right now asking for direction in my life. If you feel led, please keep me in your prayers about my plans for next school year (more to come in a future post I'm sure...my mind can't form logical sentences about that issue right now).
I've been cooking more often, and I'm trying to make them healthier. We've gone out to eat less. I've joined the "Company Girls" to help out with the home management. It's a fun way to make sure that at least one "little thing" gets done each day, and hey...you can win prizes, so that's not to bad!
One month down, 11 to go. Same goals for this month, just up a notch!! I think I'll aim for 50 miles this month!
(Please exuse all my typos and spelling errors...spell check doesn't seem to be working, and you KNOW I depend on it!! I'm the worlds WORST speller!)
Monday, January 28, 2008
- My dad...he has progressed so much! Praise God! Today is his 63 birthday. He is planning on being released from the hospital on Friday!! After over 6 months in the hospital, he is going HOME!! He and mom actually went home on Saturday for a "trial run" to see how things are going to go. Apparently they are going to be much more difficult than they had anticipated. Doors have been/are being widened for his wheel chair. A lift has been installed so he can enter the home. However, the carpet throughout the entire home is posing a problem. He has been working in the hospital on nothing but tile...no carpet. It is much more difficult to maneuver his wheelchair on the carpet. Please keep them both in your prayers as they go through this big transition this week. Pray for patience, endurance, strength, and love.
- My neighbors. Remember a few posts ago I as talking about my 'new' neighbors who have a daughter Bethany's age and a son Andrew's age, and twin baby girls. Well, apparently one of the twins is showing signs of significant delays. They were very premature and are still under 10 pounds at 5 months. However, one is progressing nicely, but the other isn't showing much development. They are taking her to a neurologist 4 hours away today. Pray for safe travel. Pray for knowledgeable and caring doctors and nurses. Pray that the Lord will show them what is going on with little "T" and that they have the courage to face whatever it may be to do what is best for her. They are wonderful people and I know they will do whatever they need to get the help that T needs...but it has to be so hard to know that something is not right, and not know what it is!
- Health...my kiddos and I are all coughing and just feeling a bit out of it. A return of health would be GREAT! We know it will come, just the sooner, the better! :-)
Thank you all for your prayers!
Sunday, January 27, 2008
I'm going to try to stay off the computer for a few days so that I can rest and hopefully get better. See ya'll when I get back!
Thursday, January 24, 2008
My night was more up and stay up than down. Bethany came to our bed at 2:15 (we're trying to stop this little habit!). That turkey even thought she was moving in and brought her own pillow which she promptly tried to smother me with. I took her back to her own bed and rubbed her back for a while...thought she was asleep and went back to my bed. I literally had one leg on the bed and she was crying (mind you, she's almost 4 years old!!!) so back I went. I got her some cough medicine to help sooth her constant cough, and the drowsy effect wouldn't hurt either, would it?? Rubbed her back some more, back to bed...one leg thing again. So, I crawled in her bed with her and she fell asleep about 30 minutes later (I'm about to loose it at this point!) so, I snuck out and went back to my bed...one leg in, crying!! AHHHH! I went and turned on her lullaby music (who cares if it wakes Abbie!) and rubbed her back for one more minute (ok, maybe 5) and then told her to go to SLEEP, mommy is freezing and going to my own bed. "You are to stay HERE, I'll see you in the morning." By this time it was about 3:45. I was just drifting off about 4, and who crawls in MY bed? At least this time she didn't try to smother me with her pillow, so I just rolled over and tried to get some sleep!
My other kids never had such problems with sleeping in their own beds. Sure, they would come in every once-in-a-while when they had bad dreams or whatever...but what's the deal?? I know she's her own person, not her brother or sister. I know she has a different personality. I know she has different strengths, and weaknesses (like SLEEPING!). I know she is in a different birth order, she's the youngest...BUT PLEASE!!! Just go to sleep!!
I actually enjoy snuggling with her, but I would much rather she sleep in her own bed. Snuggling can be fore nap time, or evening story time...not the middle of the night! During the night I'd rather snuggle with my hubby than my daughter!!!
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Warren went on a mission trip to Haiti shortly after we were married. He saw firsthand the poverty and need in that country. Because of this we chose to sponsor children in Haiti. Our first Compassion child is Wisley. Oh boy has he grown! He was a tiny 4 year old when we began sponsoring him. He's now a tall, lanky 13 year old! I bet he's much taller than me (ok, stop the laughter, I know it doesn't take MUCH to be taller than me!!!) He sends us letters a few times a year. We received his latest letter last week, he says it's cold in Haiti (wonder if I could send him a snowball from here...then he'd see what COLD looks like!). I've seen him grow so much in the past years. He's learned to read and write. He's gone to church camps. He's growing into a young man.
Or second Compassion child is a little girl named Marline. She's a cute little 6 1/2 year old who excels at school. One of the wonderful things about Compassion is that you get your child's story. You find out how many siblings they have and their favorite activity. You get the opportunity to write to your child so that you can form a bond with them. (Unfortunately I am fail miserably in the correspondence area. I always start letters, but never seem to get them completed and mailed...I am going to sit down and write Wisley back, TODAY!) One really cool thing that Compassion does is organize trips so that you can go to your child's country and actually meet them!! How wonderful would it be to be able to go see Wisley graduate from school? Oh what an experience! Maybe someday we'll get the chance to do this, but for now we pray for them daily. We have their pictures posted on our refrigerator door with other pictures of family and friends.
If you are at all interested in the work that Compassion International does, or would like to get involved, click the button to the left and it will take you to their site. I would love to hear if any of you have a cause that you are passionate about. Please leave a comment!!! Also, if you have a Compassion child, what is their name, where are they from, and how old are they???? Can't wait to hear from you all!!!
Mom and Dad had a wheel chair lift installed in their garage last week so that when dad is released from the rehabilitation hospital, he will be able to get into the house! Someday he might not need it, but it will be essential for some time to come. February 1 is circled big and red on their calender as the date they are expected to be released from the hospital. Again, PRAISE GOD!!!
UPDATED INFO FOR THE UPDATE! As of 3:30, Dad just finished walking 75 feet! He walked 53 feet this morning. He sounded winded, but WOW!! Mom said that he had to sit down a few times during his 75 foot walk, but he kept getting up and kept going! YEA!!
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
- Bethany would be in the 3-yo program, although not the same class.
- Teaching only two mornings during the week would not have offset the loss of income from giving up my childcare families.
- I had already committed to my childcare families for the school year.
One of the preschool council members just called. The preschool council met last night to come up with plans/strategies for next year. Our town is experiencing a boom in the preschool age groups. Our town just went to a full day kindergarten. The school wants to expand to fill the need (currently they have waiting lists for almost every class) and make their 4 yo program last longer and go more days a week so that it is not such a shock for the kids to start the kindergarten program. She called to see where I was with my childcare, to see if being a part of their preschool would be something that would interest me. She wanted to know where I am with my teaching certificate (no current certificate unfortunately, that's a casualty of moving from state to state while being a SAHM, although she said that I don't need a teaching certificate, that my background was enough and I would be taking some in-service training as part of their position). Mainly she just wanted me to start thinking about next year and let me know that it is a possibility that they will offer me a job.
Here are some things that are running through my head right now:
- Bethany is only going to be home from full-time school for one more year. Do I want to miss out on that? Do I want to have to put her into childcare, Abbie & Andrew never went to childcare. Will it even be an issue...I might teach the same hours she's in school.
- Will it be financially equal to what I'm making here at home with my childcare? Would we be ok if it wasn't?
- What will the families I care for now do without me...ok, I know I can be replaced, but let me bask in my being needed for a moment! :o)
- It would be SO wonderful to get back into the teaching routine, to use my brain again. So many days I feel like I do the same things over and over, and it doesn't matter. I know that it does, but who will remember in 10 years (or next week) all that I do every day. I get frustrated with the children I provide care for (I know I will have these days in preschool, too). I feel badly because even though I'm a SAHM, my schedule is not my own. I cannot to to parties at school or help out in their classrooms without messing up my childcare families' schedules. If I teach 1/2 days, would it be better?? Is that even a possibility?
- Preschool is such a special time with children, watching their love for learning unfold like a flower. Having fun reading books and doing art projects. Helping children learn how to share. Teaching them about the love of Jesus (this is a Christian preschool!). Teaching about forgiveness and getting along. Doing the messy things that moms (even me) don't like to do at home! Oh how I miss teaching.
Ok, just some rambling from a spinning head...I hope you held on when you started reading! :o) I'll keep you informed on what transpires. If you would like to pray that God will show me His will in all of this, that would be very appreciated. If you have any other considerations that you think I should think about, please leave me a comment. Thanks!
(This picture isn't of me, just a PS picture I found online...but it sure looks like fun!)
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
I am NOT cut out to be a single mother. I need a partner. I need a back-up. I need my husband. My head is pounding, the kids are whiny, they miss their dad. And...I need to take Andrew to wrestling since Daddy isn't home. Wrestling is not a mom thing, it's a dad thing! It's certainly not a mom-with-a-headache thing! Oh well...I am more thankful for my husband now than I was a week ago...didn't know that was possible.
Please pray that his plane is allowed to leave, gets him, and comes home safely. Thanks!
Update: His plane was finally allowed to leave Hays and then came to Kansas City to get him and the 2 other passengers...yes, there were only 3 passengers on his flight, it is amazng the airline didn't just cancel their flight!Instead of geting home around 6:00, he finally arrived just after 9:00. The kids were all in bed, but not completely asleep, so they all came running out "DADDY! DADDY! DADDY!" They were so glad to see him...so was I!!! The headache persists, but at least it is down to a dull ache instead of a pounding drum. Thank you all for your prayers and support!!
Nate has reported that Tricia is doing well. She is gradually waking from the week of sedatives. She is still intubated but is conscious enough to calm at her husbands voice and touch. She both smiles and frowns when Nate tells her about their daughter. Frowning because I'm sure she wants to be the one getting to touch and talk o the little miracle. Gwyneth is doing great for a 25 weeker, they are even planning to extubate sometime very soon.
Ayla is undergoing her first round of chemo. Some of the test results came back with good news,, but as her mom pointed out, its hard to rejoice while poison is being dripped into your babies' body.
I can't imagine what heartache both of these families are going through. I pray many times during the day for both of these incredibly strong families. Please join me in lifting them up to The Healer who is all powerful and will do what is best. Following Him is not always the easiest thing to do, but it is always the best.
The kids and I went to the zoo a few weeks ago on a 'nice' day. We thought it would be so wonderful, but truthfully the sidewalks were either icy or muddy. The kids love to take their bikes to the zoo and ride around. It goes much quicker for us! They only SLOW down to see the animals, not stop and watch. But that's ok, we go to this zoo quite often, so they know what all the animals look like! :o) (They usually don't get this far away from me, the rule is they have to stop at the next bench and wait for momma to catch up, or at the next corner!)However, with all the ice and mud, I was constantly pushing or pulling them out of being stuck. Andrew was spinning his tires in the mud and flinging it EVERYWHERE! We were all a big mess and left after just over an hour. It was still fun, but will be much more fun once the sidewalks are properly cleared! (The pictures don't show the bad sidewalks, during those my camera was away so I could get the kids unstuck!)
I mentioned a while back that our kids just MIGHT get a gift for Epiphany. Well, they did. Andrew had misbehaved before Christmas and lost two gifts because of his behavior...He got one of them for Epiphany, a new set of Lego's. Abbie and Bethany both got a new baby sling. They love playing with their babies (and dogs as you can see in Abbigail's pictures). I made them each slings a year or so ago, but had a lady call and want 6 child slings that night...I sold theirs to her to finish the order because I was out of fabric and time! They never complained, plus they then got to pick out their own fabric. After a year, I had lots of pieces big enough for this, so they each picked their favorite fabric and I made them a sling. One of my childcare girls is having a birthday in a week and she will receive one as well...with a baby!
We have wonderful new neighbors. Well, not SOO new, they moved in during the summer. They have a son Andrew's age (also in wresting), and a daughter Bethany's age (in her preschool class and dance class). They also have twin baby girls who were born in August but premature. The babies are SOOO tiny! The four of our kids love getting together. Abbie enjoys it too, but feels a bit left out since they don't have an older daughter. Well, the weather was nice yesterday and we were outside playing and the kids came over. When it started cooling off and it was time to fix dinner we went inside. I got out the camera to see the action. Bethany and 'P' went strait for the Barbies and Andrew and "K" went for the XBox. Abbie got to work on her homework. (The girls had dance class earlier, thus the pink outfits)
I almost forgot...Abbie has a bit of a black eye! Saturday morning during our weekend of puke, she crawled in bed with daddy since mommy and Bethany were in the living room. Dad was doing something with his Zune and dropped in on Abbie, right in her eye. I heard her scream and ran in there afraid someone else was puking! No puke, just a hurt eye. It has a small bruise, and a little black around her eye. Poor thing!
Monday, January 14, 2008
Remember those goals I made for 2008? Well, I found something that will help! This is a fun "little" thing started at Rachel Anne's blog. She is also trying to keep up with housework and keep herself organized. So, she is coming up with a "little thing" to do each day. One day it might be wiping the counters. Another it may be vacuuming the living room. Last week one day we were supposed to do something new...drive a different way to work, order a different coffee (oh for a Starbucks close!!) just something different! It's fun and it makes you think about what you are doing for your home and family! So...are you a company girl??
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Andrew has a terrible cough. His asthma has acted up pretty bad this week and I even had to take his inhaler to school twice this week. He coughs so hard that I think he's pulled muscles in his stomach...I used to do this when I was a kid. He keeps saying his tummy hurts, I'm trying to figure out if he has the tummy bug like Bethany, or if it's the muscles...I'm hoping for muscles!
Abbigail seems to be healthy at this point, just bored with being home. We were supposed to have a baby-sitter last night...which would have given her something special to do. Plus, we were supposed to go to town today for a little shopping/eating out. Of course all of that was put on hold.
My dad spilt a cup of coffee on himself this week and has blisters on his chest, stomach, and legs. He cannot get into the pool until these heal. The doctors are giving him a tentative date for going home!!! Feb. 1!! This will be wonderful. Mom and dad ordered a lift to go in their garage to make getting in and out of the house easier. Also, the doors to the bedroom and office will be widened to allow his wheelchair to go through.
Yesterday was my mom's birthday...HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!! My brother and his family made a cake and took it up to the hospital. They all enjoyed a nice dinner together. I miss being there and being able to be a part of these special, and yet day-to-day things.
I'm sorry for the downer post, but this is where I am right now. I am sad, tired, frustrated, and yet so thankful. Bethany is now holding down food. Dad is healing and getting so much stronger. Andrew's cough will get better. Other date nights can be planned. There are so many people going through so much harder things. Some bloggers that I have been reading and praying for are Nate and Ayla's family. Nate is a young husband of a woman with cystic fibrosis. They became pregnant and made the difficult and brave decision to continue the pregnancy. She could not take many of her medications while pregnant for the safety of the baby. This week she was ventilated and delivered the baby via c-section. Gwyneth Rose was born at 25 weeks and weighs 1 pound 6 oz. They are in an amazing battle for their lives. Nate is such a huge inspiration, in the face of possibly loosing his wife and daughter he still sees the hand of God and has faith and hope.
Ayla is a little girl adopted from China by a family here in the USA. She has had difficulty with an eye and has had many surgeries. A surgery just days before Christmas revealed cancer. She is now undergoing tests and chemo will start next week. This family is also a testament to faith. They don't know why this is happening to their precious little girl, but they know that God will see them through.
When I start feeling sorry for myself, I remind myself that others are going through much worse...and I thank God for taking care of us. I pray that God continues to take care of those families going through such difficulties, comforts them, protects them, and heals them. Even if this is not God's will, I pray that God brings hope and sees the families through their trials.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Can you see why I'm so very proud??? This is the best gift I was given this year!!
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
First...a prayer of thanksgiving. My dad got up out of his wheelchair and walked the entire length of the parallel bars (probably 15 feet) and sat back in his wheelchair, all UNASSISTED! No one had a hand on him, he did it all by himself, with God's help of course! Praise God for answering our prayers for strength. It is slow going, but he is indeed getting stronger each and every day.
Second...a prayer for safety. My husband is driving to a town about 2 hours away for a pastor's meeting. He called about 5 minutes after leaving home and said that the highway was a sheet of ice. He called back about 3 minutes later and said that there was a bad accident and could I please call the sheriff to make sure someone had reported it. He called a little later to let me know he would call when he got to the next big town, about 15 miles away. That was nearly an hour and a half ago. He still hasn't called. I've tried calling him many times and he is not answering his cell phone. I keep telling myself that he's just got his music up too loud and can't hear the phone...please let that be all there is. I'm so worried right now I'm almost in tears. PLEASE GOD, KEEP HIM SAFE!!!! One of the families I do childcare for, the dad is a highway patrolman. He is off today, but I'm considering calling him and seeing if he can find out if there has been any more accidents, if he can find out any info for me. I know...I just need to calm down and take a deep breath. He's fine, I'm sure....
UPDATE: He is fine. He was having some issues with his hood not wanting to stay latched, so he stopped in Garden City (the town he said he was going to call from) to see if he could fix it. He was concerned about the hood and forgot to call. He left the phone inside the car, so he didn't hear it ringing. He feels very bad about making me worry. I just thank God that he's ok!!!
Thanks for praying...Andie
Monday, January 7, 2008
Monday: Chicken fried steak, mashed potatoes, gravy, and corn. (I've been craving this!!!)
Friday, January 4, 2008
I've walked 8.88 (how's that for a number) miles so far. I've read my Bible each morning. I finished the Old Testament (started in Psalms in April and read strait through), so I went back and started in Genesis...I'm on Genesis 26. I've lost 1 pound. I played games with the kids, read books with them, went to the library, we are planning a trip to the zoo for tomorrow if the weather is nice.
Warren is out of town, I miss him! He'll be back tomorrow, but it's lonely here all by myself...the kids are in bed and the house is quiet.
So, that's how it has been so far. I know 1 pound is only 1 pound, but I'm excited!!!! It's a start!!! I'd love to have to buy a whole new wardrobe come summer because all my clothes are too big!! Wouldn't that be a wonderful problem???!!!
Like I said, the house is quiet...there are dirty dishes calling my name, and then I think my pillow is adding chorus in the background. Good night!
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
I'm not all that big on new year's resolutions because they seem to be a big joke. Everyone laughs about how quickly they are broken. So, instead of calling them resolutions, I'm going to give myself some goals for 2008.
- I want to get healthy. I want to exercise more, eat less junk, eat more healthy!I want to be able to keep up with my kids. I want to be a better example of a healthy life. I know that my unhealthy lifestyle is catching up with me, and it will only get worse as I continue getting older, so I want to change that NOW! I want to walk on my treadmill at least 4 days a week, and do other exercises the other days. Warren got me a stereo bluetooth headset for Christmas so I can listen to my music while I walk...I wonder how far I can walk in a year! I'll try to keep track and let you know every month how far I've walked! So far I've gone 2 miles (and it's only the first!)
- I want to be closer to my God. I try to read my Bible while I'm walking on my treadmill, but that means that if I don't walk, I generally don't read. That needs to change. My relationship with God needs to be my biggest priority. I want to spend more time in prayer and journaling, along with my Bible reading.
- I want to be a better wife and mother. I want to better manage my home. I want to make a better effort to prepare healthy meals every night, not just once or twice a week. I want to do meal planning, so I know I have the stuff on hand so I can prepare the meals. I want to make my husband my priority...I want to romance him and show him that he is the one I love, for life! I want my children to know that they are some of the most important people in my life. I want them to know that I love them and spending time with them is very important to me. I want to keep my house more organized so that I can have people over on a whim, and not be embarrassed. I want to be able to find things instead of having stacks and stacks of stuff. I'm tired of being embarrassed when someone stops by, I want to be able to welcome them in without having to say "I'm sorry the house is such a mess!" Lived in, yes...messy, not so much! Part of managing our home is finances. I need to start watching more what we spend on, and stop needless spending. Having the extra income from Bazine is nice, but we are getting way too used to it, and it won't be here forever! Plus, as a childcare provider for teachers, my income is pretty much $0 for 3 months...gotta save so we can survive the summer! :o)
Ok, there are 3 main goals (lots involved in each of them!) I'm going to try to do my best on these. I know I will not keep them perfectly, so I will not be berating myself when I fail. If I do that then I will just quit and not even try. So...here's to doing my BEST!
And now he's resting! He would walk 4-8 feet, then sit down and rest. It is such hard work. He was telling me that one thing he is working on in the pool where it is easier to walk, is reminding his body how to do it! Which arm swings with which foot. Which muscle to contract to make his leg move. How to put the weight on his foot, and of course balance is an issue. It's amazing how easily we walk, not even thinking about which muscle is moving at what time...but after months in bed, and everything his body has been through this year...it doesn't remember. I am so proud of him for working SOOO HARD! I am afraid I would have given up a long time ago!
Of course, that's my mom holding his wheelchair. She has been such a pillar of strength this year. Warren had back surgery a few years ago, and I was a wreck! He was only in the hospital for 2-3 days...my Dad has been in the hospital for almost 7 months of the 12. She has been there nearly constantly. While he was in the ICU, and most of the "big hospital" stay, she stayed with him 24/7. Only going home to shower and change clothes, do a load of laundry, and go back. She used all her vacation/sick time she had built up for the past 20 years and so she retired in May...truthfully she was planning this change in advance, but the change has helped so much with her guilt about not being able to do her job...her job this year has been to be there for dad, and she has done an excellent job! She definitely deserves a raise! :o) I admire her strength, patience, strength, love, endurance, strength, and faith. (Did I mention how strong she is? Mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually, she's one STRONG Chick!) She is the most Godly woman I know...I hope I can be like her one day.
After the service in Bazine, we drove back home to have our traditional "FIND THE PICKLE!!" contest. We have a pickle Christmas tree ornament. We hang it on the tree like any other ornament. Then, when we are ready to open gifts, I hide the pickle. The kids come in and whoever finds the pickle gets to play Santa. (Legend says that whoever finds the pickle gets the first gift, but in our home they get to be Santa and hand out the gifts to the rest of the family, which means they are LAST to get to open a gift, but they LOVE being the one who gets to hand them out, so it's a great hunt!!)